The Addicts Lament

The Addicts Lament.


I have a friend who I have lost.

We were so close for so long

Every day entangled and connected

In every way mutually directed.


Every need of each, clambering to the top

Survival forcing collaboration

Driving us to inseparable bond.

A friendship that could not stop.


Smokey’s lines either way

Unknown, made sense to sing.

Like Brothers or lovers, contra mundi

We fought off attacks upon our troth.


Until at last we two stood shakily alone

And surveyed the bloody carnage.

We had fought long and hard for this

This empty victory over life.


Collapsing to the littered ground we embraced

And eye to eye agreed.

That our journey was done with nothing won,

And went our separate ways.


I howled out loud and begged them return.

I was unknowing and opaque

Without alliance or protection

Before an ordinary world.


Despite the certainty of our defeat

And the clarity of our disunions need,

Despite desolations greedy stare,

Like a severed limb I missed my friend.


This need eclipsed my cloudy mind

All thoughts were scattered and split.

A constant grief driven drone

An insistent pull to reunite.


In the thinnest moment, an echo

My friend and I face to face

That knowing instant, that certainty,

We were done or dead, let go let go.


Written by Francis de Aguilar©


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